I like to run. A few days ago I met a hole that begged to differ. The hole won. This should be interesting.
TKV Desikachar (Krishnamacharya's son) once said, "The success of yoga does not lie in the ability to perform postures, but in how it positively changes the way we live our life and our relationships." Indeed. I'm keeping that in mind as I hobble my happy ass around on a fairly intensely sprained ankle for the next few weeks. It's taken a couple of days for the full impact of my injury to sink in. At first, I was so stoked I hadn't broken my ankle that the prospects of the injury didn't bother me much. But now, on my 3rd day of lots of sitting on that aforementioned happy ass, I've had some time to process. I've done lots of research, of course (apparently it's PRICE now, not just RICE). As it turns out, I also have in my home and close circle of friends some of the most experienced ankle sprainers (and breakers) around, so I'm getting great advice and care. I'm actually kind of excited to teach my classes from a new vantage point (cane-wielding!). And I'm already well into modifying my yoga and physical regimen to both carefully rehab my ankle and keep everything else working and happy in the meantime. Overall, I'm very pleased with the reactions that came flying out of my being.
But...it still sucks, man. There's the pain part. And even as minor a setback as it is in the grand scheme of "what could go wrong," I'm nevertheless struggling with the frustration of limitations, temporary though they may be. My mind wants to do Surya Namaskar, go surfing, go for a run, heck, clean the house! The mind is indeed the most difficult thing to soothe and tame. It's why we do the physical practice at all, really. It's easier to work with our physical tissues, to learn how to consciously affect them, than it is to work with our minds. So, by learning how to train our consciousness on our physical bodies, we also gradually gain insight into training our consciousness on itself.
So, yes, this is temporarily putting me in a padded room with myself. I want to move, sweat, work hard. But no. Not now. Yoga has had such a tremendously positive impact on my life, giving me an abundantly active, vibrant, full lifestyle. And now, I guess yoga is asking me to take a little side path, to show me some new lessons and a slightly different perspective. I know I'll be able to get right back to all that stuff I love in a jiffy. Patience, young padawan! But, for at least a little while, I'm getting an immersion in the dreaded asana of the mind. Hopefully, sanity will prevail!